Pent up anger.

Recently I found my life to have lots of pent up anger inside.

This source of anger comes from everywhere... Work, Motherhood, Marriage, Friends and etc.

Many ppl have different ways of dealing with their anger.. But I realized that I have no where to vent those anger and frustration.

My hub keep asking me to go for HIIT ( high-intensity interval training). But honestly where do I find the time? At times, I just wish to have some "me" time.. but there will be ppl who view it as an easy way out not to care for your kid.

So it seems like I need to find a venue for me to release those anger and frustration.

Xoxo
a wear out mother

My first post of the year.. Jan 2016

I have terribly neglected this little space of mine where I rant and complain and compliments...

So here's the 1st post of the Year 2016.. {though it comes in 3 weeks late}

A little recap of 2015.

1. Baby D celebrated her 1st year birthday!
2. We survived the 1st year of Parenthood 
3. Received our house keys. {highlight of the year}
4. Started our renovation and along the way, we learn quite a bit in renovations and dealing with contractors and sub contractors.
5. Shifted into our lovely home and had friends coming over for house warming, Saturday night movies and Christmas celebrations!
6. Baby D completed her 1 sessions of Playgroup classes!! {Proud Mama}

So we start off with 2016 by celebrating our 3rd wedding anniversary! Well, by just slacking at home...

This year.. lets it be a good year! May my families be healthy, happy and wise.

As for me.. I hope to exercise more patience, save more $$ = less shopping online and enrich myself.

I'm secretly hoping that this year.. I'm able to travel to a country that I've never been before. Either with my friend, Mr Lee or myself. *keep my finger cross*

Have a great year!!

 Another week to go before we celebrate Chinese New Year!

Xoxoxo

Felicia 

Something that I'm looking forward!

This December, Lee Family is going to Bali for our first family vacation!

I'm pretty excited cause we have been to Bali during our honeymoon and now we are going back 2 years later with Baby D.

Saw the Groupon was having a deal on the villa that we used to stay during our honeymoon and we decided to purchase it and revisit the villa again!

Villa Kayu Raja

This time round we are planning to stay at Bali for 4D3N.. make sure of the time there to visit some "must visit" places.

• Ubud Art Market
• Rice Fields
• Tanah Lot
• Kintamani Tour
• Jimbaran seafood

Recently I've been checking the weather forecast and was quite disappointed to see that "Thunderstorm".. also daily!

Let's hope that when the Lee Family are there.. the weather will be nice enough for us to stroll along the streets and visit those attractions!!

It's out first time bringing Baby D who is 22 months old on an overseas trip!! I feel like packing the whole house along!! Pretty paranoid that her diapers and formula milk are not enough for this trip!


Now I have to pen those itineraries and also Baby D's luggage packing list!

In case I'm too lazy to pen my next blog before Christmas..

Wishing one and all a very Happy Holidays!!

Xoxoxo
Felicia

Now I know

It's been 20 months since I'm a mother. I have my share of ups and downs... and I'm sure this feeling of motherhood will last me a long long time.. but it's only recently, in fact this week that the meaning of Motherhood hits me hard.

All these while Baby D maybe a stubborn girl but still she is a happy girl.. a bit of reasoning, a bit of bribing, she will still listen to us. But this week, she caught the flu virus bad and it isn't her first time that she caught it.

It was so bad that she had high fever.. the moment baby D has high fever, all she wants is just Mama. I can't leave her sight to make milk nor prepare the medicine. It seems that only my presence can calm her.. my voice can sooth her and my hugs and kisses can heal her.

It is this notation that makes me think that Motherhood is really wonderful. I'm still in awe that this little human being is soo independent and yet so dependant on Mama. How long will baby D be dependant on me till? All these will go away the moment she has grown up. Some day it will reach to point when my voice can't sooth her nor my hugs and kisses has magical kisses.

I may complain that I dun have time for myself and it is tough to juggle between a wife, full time working adult and a mother.

Babies dun keep. I'm just gonna increase my patience level and enjoy this journey!

Xoxoxo
Felicia

Friendship

As I grow older, got married and have a family. I wonder if I will still have my friends with me?

I not the kind of person who have alots of friends.. those who I called good friends (aka sisters kinds) are just a handful. I'm thankful that I have 2 good sisters whom I've been contacting since Secondary School days.. they are my oldest friends.

Next batch of friends are the ones that I've made during my working days. These group of girls are the only ones who are I really hang out with and meet up often. But recently I felt that one of them have fall out of grid.. Felt sad that best friends has become strangers.

Well, life still lives on. At least now I know who are my true friends.

Xoxoxo
Felicia

Motherhood vs Just Me?

Now that I'm a mother.. I can start to feel the difference when I'm single and when I have a toddler on my hip.

Things are different. My weekends are spent mothering that little human that I've created. I spent time playing with her, bringing her out and do some mother daughter bonding.
Time actually flies when you're out.. well for my case cause my in law place isn't really baby proof and D is super curious that she will touch EVERYTHING! (Itchy fingers and itchy backside cause she can't sit still)

Trust me, I love our weekends like this. But at times, I just wish have a day to myself to do things that I want.. Stuffs like, going for yoga classes, manicure / pedicures, going to hair salon to get my hair done and etc. I'm able to do these "my errands" on weekdays which means that I will need to apply leave.

This year.. a big bulk of my leave went to house renovations. I need to take leave here and there to ensure that delivery is on time, to check out works are done according to our preferences and etc. This leave me with having to think carefully whenever I wanna apply leave to run my own errands.

I just wish that I can split myself into two.

Xoxo
Felicia